MINDSPACE

My mindgames

Sometimes late at night when the whole world is lost in peaceful and lovely dreams.. I lie awake in my bed.... staring out of the window.. tryin to assimilate GODS beautiful creations in my mind.. the silver moonlight, the tiny stars dat flicker away in the velvet sky..... the gentle breeze that blows.. sending shivers all over me.... Then sometimes i wonder.... about.. life.. it complexities.....the various surprises that it throws at us....life they say is unpredictable...... u never know what is going to come your way....I think about where life is going to take me.... or whether I am going to take life with me.. wherever I go.... a bundle of contradictions is what they call me... maybe i am...maybe......... I belive strongly that i have two contradictory souls inside of me..... a bubbly and vivacious girl .. who isalso shy, imaginitive.. ultra sensitive.. creative.. who loves to write poetry.. and who is a rebel.. loves to break rulesloves to do challenging things... loves to hang out with friends.. but PREFERS to spend a quite sunday evening at home with her family.... a girl with a deep passion for books.. who has obssesive compulsive disorder....a cleanliness freak.. who needs her own space... maybe thats what i am......i am on a path of self discovery.. they say you should know who you are.. what you are.. how you are.. i say life is a journey where you are continously discovering yourself... there cannot be a point where you can say that i know myself completly.... a path of self discovery.. that is what i call life....i love the quite of the night....... it is serene and calm.. with only the stars to give you company...it has been a habit to stay awake at night and think about life.. love, friends, family, broken relationships, about things that were never meant to be.. my first love.. my first aspirations of being a doctor.. a dream that remained unfulfilled...a famished wish.. which still pricks my heart.. as i gather my stray thoughts of the night.. the moon and the stars.. my companions in the twilight.. bid me farewell and the sun comes calling..........

posted by angel @ 5:31 AM